a book I got from the library
101 Asian dishes to make before you die
my reaction: I’ve had the book for 2 months and I’ve only made 3 dishes from it. I have 98 dishes to make before I die. It’s putting the pressure on me. It’s really stressful. I didn’t know a recipe book would make me anxious.
breath in breath out
When I’m feeling stressed I will go on YouTube and practice a 10 minute guided meditation video. I found a breathing exercise video that claimed you can release DMT. DMT is a psychedelic often found in plants and animals that can cause hallucinations. I thought “hmm… I can get high off breathing? Why not?”. I did 10 minutes of different breathing exercises to release DMT. One exercise had me take short deep aggressive breaths, I didn’t feel high but I did feel like I was going to hyperventilate. The second breathing technique had me hold my breath for 1 minute and 30 seconds. I felt like I was going to pass out. I’m not sure if I released any DMT, I just felt light headed from holding my breath.
source shroom
I was reading a group chat on Reddit about psychedelics and one user commented that he wanted to do mushrooms but he couldn’t “source” them in his area. He used the word ‘source’ like he was a waiter talking about how today’s special is ocean caught Salmon from the Atlantic. People source local organic food, people don’t source drugs. You can’t source free range cocaine or source wild caught heroin. Stop acting like you are a foodie. You’re not a foodie. You’re a junkie. You’re not sourcing fresh caught Shrimp. You’re looking for drugs. You’re sourcing your next high you hype.
toxic you
There’s a thing called toxic beauty being promoted by “influencers”. I hate the term influencers. I don’t like influencers. Why are we letting ourselves being influenced by people who are not famous? Toxic beauty doesn’t make sense to me. I guess people who are good looking can’t be hot anymore. Remember the saying, “if you got it flaunt it’. Nope, now your toxic for making yourself look good. Stop working out, eating right, and taking care of yourself, you’re making the people who don’t do that sad. Why don’t you stop looking at the screen and invest in yourself? You’re being toxic by looking at these influencers.
hot mario
A lot of kids are on phones these days. Some people compare it to when kids were playing video games when we were growing up. I disagree. It’s totally different. I don’t think that’s the case. Your phone is way more powerful than video games. Video games never caused teen depression. Video games never caused mental health issues. It may have caused anger management issues but you’d never cry over losing a game. Mario and Luigi never made me insecure about my body. There was no toxic beauty in video games. It wasn’t reality. We knew that. Social media is way more harmful than Bowser from Super Mario Brothers.
smart curt
I used to work at Noodles & Co as a cook in college. There was actually another person with my name who worked there. There were two Curts. During one shift I overheard one of the servers talking about one of the Curt’s. They asked another co worker, “Do you know where Curt is?” The other replied, “the dumb Curt or the smart Curt?”. As I walked by she said, “don’t worry your not the dumb Curt. “I’m not?’, I said surprisingly. I was the smart Curt. There was another Curt dumber than me. I thought we were both the dumb Curts, we both work at Noodles. I wasn’t doing anything that required thinking. Everything was pre made. I was saucing noodles and saying ‘order up’.
doogie howser moment
The word toxicity is being thrown around too much. It’s funny how easier life gets the terms we use get harsher. If someone explained present day life to a caveman they’d laugh at us and “our” problems. Cavemen didn’t know about toxic beauty. They were all ugly. They didn’t source mushrooms, they sourced Sabre tooth tiger. They weren’t doing breathing techniques to calm themselves down because they were too stressed from working at home, they were just trying to live. They didn’t eat Noodles and Co. They were just happy they ate that day. They never wrote a book but if they did they’d call it We wish we had 101 dishes to eat before we die.